New Year. Rant.
I hate New Year’s Eve. Everyone making promises they won’t keep and laughing and having fun. But it’s always just a reminder that yet another shitty, uneventful year has passed for me. I think this is year 3 that I’ve driven home crying. It’s so depressing and a horrible way to start anew. Can’t help it though. I have hardly any friends and those I do still have I continually push away. I’m lonely. Alone. This sucks. I just want to run away. REALLY start over. My life is working and going to school. I work to pay for school. Do nothing fun. I know I have a lot to be grateful for. Most definitely. But New Year’s Eve, every little thing just hits me So. Hard. I’m over it. And done being depressing now. Have one happy fucking new year. :)
i will rip out every last bit of love i gave you
i will break the hold you have on me
digging inside
scraping and carving the love i had for you woven into your fibers
